Something wrong with Bolt (the shih tzu). You see, 2 weeks ago I noticed something in Bolt’s left eye. There was a white spot on the his pupil. I doubt it was catarata because Bolt is just 9 months old. Something could have pricked his eyes. :( poor thing. I wish I could see his eyes as bright as this again. I would sometimes cry when I think about it.

That is me with Twinkle, my favorite. This photo was taken today. The vet said that Twinkle is obese and that she needs to lose 2 kilograms. The reason is when she got pregnant at that state, she could die. The truth, I don’t want twinkle to get pregnant. I don’t want to see her having a hard time carrying her baby for months. I just don’t want twinkle to feel that way. I just found out that our maid is only feeding her once a day. How cruel :( I tried to hide foods for her. I also noticed that since yesterday, twinkle is always coughing like she is chocking. She must’ve have taken something she should not because of too much hunger. :’( I feel bad for her. 

I love my dogs very much. I became so attached with them, because for them, I don’t feel so alone at times. I’m praying for them and I hope they do get well soon. 

There are so many disappointment that happened tonight. One is, I just found out that my family is not going to church with me tomorrow. We weren’t acually, but then my mom told me we will so i already agreed to dance on that special number at church. Another thing is, me and my boyfriend, who is out of the country, weren’t able to talk since yesterday. The other things, I don’t even know how to express. I know it’s christmas eve and you probably don’t wanna hear another rant, but I really don’t feel like tonight’s anything special for me.

Tonight is my boyfriend and his family’s flight to US. Actually, they’ll passed by two other countries but basically they will stay in the US. Christmas, New Year and our eighth months, we will spent apart. 17 days countdown. I miss him already.