I cried it all out already. My eyes are already swollen and I don’t think I can get out of the house tomorrow.
I really have no one to talk to last night so I called my lola but she’s already asleep. Good thing, my tita was kind enough to talk to me. She must’ve noticed that my voice is shaking. I told her everything and I said that I don’t want to sleep at home. She told me to apologize to my mom and then ask for permission from her if I could let me sleep at their house. Of course, I can’t do that. I said to myself, what would I apologize for? That my sister is such a freak that even the smallest thing could turn into a worst case scenario cat fight?
But then, I realized that it’s still the right thing to apologize. I can’t tell it right into her face so I wrote a letter. To my mom, not my sister. And I sleep in the sala.
And no, I can’t tell it to him. He’s having a good time with his family and I don’t wanna ruin it. Besides, his family is too perfect for him to understand.
There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater…The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that’s the key. It’s like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.
Sabi nila pag in a relationship ka, dapat sweet kayo, dapat may chemistry kayo, dapat may monthsary kayo. Pero hindi yun eh. Yung pinakamaganda dun, yung nasasabi mo kung ano yung nararamdaman mo ng walang ilang, hindi ka nahihiya sa mga gagawin mong kagaguhan kasi alam mong hindi ka niya huhusgahan. :)
You know its worth sticking around when that one person deals with your bullshit no matter what the case is. Even when everything is going downhill that one person sticks by your side and reassures you that they’re not going anywhere anytime soon.The one who would stick up for you even when you’re not around. That’s the one worth keeping. That’s the one worth fighting for. That’s the one you wouldn’t wanna lose.
To me there’s more significance in cuddlin’. Getting to hold her tight with feelings rushing. Smiling from the thought of comfort. Sleepin’ in her open arms. Gazing at each other. Feeling nothing but the natural joy of love and happiness of having eachother. Yeah, I’d take that over sex anytime.
I hate when I meet someone new and I start to talk to them on a regular basis. Then it becomes a everyday routine and I grow super attached to them. But suddenly out of the blue, we just stop talking completely. I think that really sucks because I just sit here waiting for nothing. I’m not sure what happened but I thought we were friends.
As much as I want to keep my brown colored hair, my course won’t let me :( I have no choice. I can’t take the final exam. Ugh. This is the worst part of being in this field.
I’m actually thinking of having my hair permanently curled. You know, the Vanessa Hudgens’ kind of hairstyle. But I’ve never tried this before that’s why I’m quite scared too so maybe I’ll just have it rebonded instead. I really don’t know? Any suggestions?