Sorry for all that post about contests. Teehee. I’m desperate to win freebies this Christmas season. I hope I can win at least one of them. Ima out now. Gonna watch Mischievous Kiss. I’m so addicted to Korean dramas these past few days :P
I can’t help but think to myself that I already missed a lot on life. You see I’m already 18 and I believe that it’s already the end of teenage life. The best part of life, as I believe so. I should have been more conscious about my figure & how I dress up. How I wish my family was so rich that I can buy any clothes, shoes, accessories, make-ups and bags I like. I should have gone to a different high school so I can meet a lot of guys and maybe right now I have a boyfriend worthy to keep for a lifetime. I should have gone to a different college and pursue a course that is really my interest and where I could really shine.
How I wish I could turn back the time and change all these. Maybe I would be in a better place right now. Not that I’m where am I right now. It’s just I regret some things in my life that I didn’t fight for something I really like.
I know you spent a lot of money for my debut but that doesn't mean you can take the all my cash gifts! C'mon it's not everyday that I gotta have money like that. I should have more than 10k right now. But yeah, It's all good. Just wanna rant about it.
I feel like I want to die tonight just so my parents would regret everything they have said and done.
I’ve been trying whole day to prevent myself from talking back but they just keep on testing my patience. Sobrang sama ng loob ko ngayon. Di nila alam na nahirapan na ko. Sa lahat nga ng plano ko lagi ka na lang my pangit na sinasabi. Can’t they just at least for this time try to make me feel good? It’s my debut tomorrow and they just ruin everything for me. My eyes are sore. I don’t feel good anymore. Hay bahala na bukas :(