One thing that I really hate about myself is that I’m really moody. That kind of moodiness that people are acceptable to kill me for. Just today, I was so excited to eat the food that I’m craving for for a long time, then one thing happened and i felt like everything just crashed in me. I just want to throw that shit in the garbage. My pms just added to it, but really, I’m plain moody.
Also today, I was so mad at someone that I just wanna break his fucking neck. And then after a while, he just said something that made my heart melt, literally. I felt like I’m the most vulnerable thing. I just hate myself.
And now, just moments before going to bed, I don’t feel so great. I felt like messing up with someone’s life tomorrow when I wake up. But it changed with a simple phone call from someone special. I felt excited about waking up tomorrow. Life is good. I’m crazy, eh?
“I am too intelligent, too demanding, and too resourceful for anyone to be able to take charge of me entirely. No one knows me or loves me completely. I have only myself.”—Simone de Beauvoir (via c-raving)
I hate waking up in the morning with a bad mood. Didn’t get enough sleep last night but I can’t force myself to sleep right now either. Headache’s pretty bad too. I usually eat when I’m upset, but somehow I don’t know exactly what to eat right now. I plan to run on the treadmill for 30 minutes starting today, but I don’t even wanna get out of the bed. My mom’s going to kill me. The aircon has been on all morning until now. All I do is play plants vs zombies and rape my dashboard.
It’s weird how much this song is relevant to us. Our relationship is crazy. We fight all the time. Then, we get over it and make up. There were days when l will tell myself, we’re not going to fight. No, not this time. Then, we’ll fight again. A real bad one. Then, get over it once again. It’s like a cycle that both satisfy us.
"you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe."
now i know we said things, did things, that we didn’t mean and we fall back into the same patterns, same routine but your temper’s just as bad as mine is, you’re the same as me when it comes to love you’re just as blinded.”
maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano all i know is i love you too much to walk away though.”